Alison's Lyrical Book

ALISON'S LYRICAL BOOK

Here are just a few of Alison's lyrics and songs she has written through the years...

All lyrics and music are property of Esther Summers. No parts can be copied or used without her permission.

Brother of Mine

Ali wrote this song for her brother Brian after he died in the Persian Gulf War...This song is dedicated to my special friend Major Thomas Zeugner who died in 1991 at the age of 36. 

Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine

You walked upon this earth but only for a short moment in time.
I admired your strength, your smile, your compassion

Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine

As you fought for our country,
We stood behind you brother mine.
You were always so proud,
To wear the colors brother mine.

My heart aches,
You're no longer here with me.
My heart aches,
I have lost you from this world.

Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine

You were my protector,
Always and forever more.
You were a protector,
For so many in this world.

My heart aches,
I have lost my best friend.
My heart aches,
I miss your goofy grin.


Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine

I will honor you with my music,
I shall never forget your brothers in arms.





Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine...



My heart aches,
Knowing your are no longer in this world.
My heart aches,
To hear your voice once more.

Bother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine, Brother of Mine...

You Saved Me

Ali wrote this song while she lay in the hospital. You can see her depression and her strength as she weaves her way through all her emotions....

 

Give me the strength.

Help me.          Help me.                      Are you out there?      Oh, Oh, Oh.    Oh, oh, oh, oh.           

Help me.          Help me.                      Give me the strength.

Help me.          Help me.                      Are you out there?

                                                            Give me the strength.

                                                            Are you out there?

As I lay here dying,

So alone…so scared,

As I lay here dying,

So alone…crying…so scared.   Oh, Oh, Oh.  Oh, oh, oh.

Help me           Help me.                      Give me the strength

                                                            To run, to fly, to die

                                                            Are you out there?

                                                            As I lay here,

                                                            Are you out there?

                                                            As I lay here dying.

So alone…so scared.

Tell me do you hear me crying?

Tell me can you feel me dying?

My heart is screaming for you tonight.

My soul is dying tonight.

Give me the strength to on.

To run, to fly, I want to live.

My heart is screaming for you tonight.           Oh, oh, oh, oh.

 Help me.         Help me.                      Give me the strength.

Help me.          Help me.                      Are you out there?     

Help me.          Help me.                      Give me the strength.

Help me.          Help me.                      Are you out there?

Oh, oh, oh, oh. Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

I want to live………….I want to live.

You saved me.      You saved me.

You saved me.      You saved me.

The Runner

Ali wrote this song to help with her depression when she returned. At the beginning of her return you can see her struggles through her music.

I lay here dying, barely breathing, holding onto life.
I should have died months ago,
Bu I choose to live.

I refuse to die in this wretched place,
Alone, lonely, and without the people who love me.
I fight, I fight, and I never give up.
When I am healing, I run, run, run.

They call me the runner and so that is my new name,
The runner, my new identity,
The runner, my new being.
But I will not allow you to kill me here in this wretched place.

You beat me, you rape me, you torture me.
With your hands and your words.
Sometimes I forget who I am?
Where I came from?
What my real name is?


At times I forget......


But a flicker of hope begins to emerge,
It releases throughout my body,
Fighting for freedom, fighting to run,
And so today I fight, I fight, and I never give up.

                                                                                    

I run, run, run...


They call me the runner,
That is my new name.
The runner, my new identity,
The runner, my new being.


You stare upon my face with those black evil eyes.
Eyes that had love and tenderness when I first met you,
And now you have hate.
Hate for me...your wife.


I know not why?
But I dare not ask questions.
Instead, I sit as a prisoner in these four walls,

Waiting for my chance to escape.
Escape from this wretched place.
Tomorrow...I will run.

Run, run, run...

They call me the runner,
That is my new name.
The runner,
My new identity.


I look upon the mirror,
Sometimes I forget I was a human being.
I was someone who was loved and respected.


I have to reach deep into my soul,
To remember my name.
Remember who I was.

Remember and run, run, run……………………………

 

MotherFather

Ali wrote this song for her Mother and Father and sang it during the funeral.

I said goodbye to you today MotherFather,
I said goodbye to you today MotherFather.


My heart aches as if a knife has been placed deep inside,
I don't know how I'm going to make it through this nightmare.
Sometimes I look around and feel so alone.

How can I walk this earth without the two of you.
And yet I look around and see all the love in this room,
So many others who loved and respected you,
Can you see them, can you hear their voices?


Their tears are flowing like a river down a mountain top
Their tears of compassion and love.
By staring into their eyes I can see the two of you.
As I begin to remember...

I close my eyes and can see your smiles upon your faces,
I close my eyes and see your brown eyes staring down at me.
I close my eyes and remember our last days together,
My heart aches...I walk this earth in pain and agony.

I know not how long I will be here without the two of you,
I know not how I wake up each morning and continue my walk towards the future.
And yet I begin to remember...

I close my eyes and can see your smiles upon your faces,
I close my eyes and see your brown eyes staring down at me.
I close my eyes and remember our last days together,

So today I clean myself off,
I take one step forward, one step back.
I take one day at a time.

And I take a breath, look around and remember who you were,
I take a breath and remember who I am,
I am your daughter who will carry your memory with me forever.


I said goodbye to you today MotherFather.
I said goodbye to you today Mother Father.
I said goodbye to you today MotherFather...

In a Field Running 

Ali struggles to hold on. She writes this song after a nightmare she has...

 

I was in a field running,
My lungs ached but I continued to run.
I ran past many who stared, cried, and laughed.


I was named the runner.
Because I ran...ran...ran.
Towards my freedom,
Never giving up.

Never letting go of the reality,
Here in this place in time,
I was am a prisoner.

I  reminisced of the past,
My loved ones.
Did they remember me?
Did they think of me?


God I did know anymore,

But I ran, I ran towards freedom...my freedom.

I ran past many faces,

Some stared, some cried, while others laughed.

They called me the runner.

As the sun began to fall,

And the moon began to rise,

The light shone upon me.

Showing me the direction in which to run.

And so I ran.

My lungs ached,

My heart broke,

As I ran towards freedom.

Oh God show me the way.

Show me the way.
I want to be free.
Let me find the light for freedom...

Michael

Ali writes this song for Michael right after they meet in High School...the first time Michael hears it he realizes how special Ali is and how important she will be in his life...

Michael you are my friend,

Michael you are my friend,

I know we have only known each other for yet a short time

And yet my heart knows that you will be with me for my lifetime.

Michael my friend,

My heart beats with a joyous rhythm as you walk into the room

I can’t explain it but I know you will be there for me,

Michael my friend.

You make me laugh, you bring that laughter within me spread across the room.

Sometimes I forget about the laughter and how important it is.

Michael my friend,

You bring a smile to my face.

Michael my friend,

You bring life to my lifeless life

Michael my friend,

You bring a torch for my light that is sometimes burning low.

I can’t explain it,

I only know that you will be there for me,

Michael my friend.

Michael my friend.

The Diner 

Ali writes this song right after she leaves the diner for the second time. She can't get her mind off of the stranger so she pens her thoughts into music...

 

I entered the room,

And felt your heart next to mine.

I turned around and looked up at you staring down.

The first time I looked upon his eyes,

That bore straight into my heart.

I wanted to stay here,

With you next to me.

I wanted to stay here,

With you next to me.

I want to touch you,

And know you are real.

I want to feel your skin,

Next to mine forever. 

You looked at me as If I mesmerized your mind,

I could not breathe and my heart stopped beating.

Please me and kiss me upon my mouth

Love me as much as I have fallen in love with you.

I wanted to stay here,

With you next to me.

I wanted to stay here,

With you next to me.

The Wedding Song for Michael and Caressa

Ali wrote this song for Michael and Caressa and performed it during their wedding...

As you walk down the aisle today

I send you my love and devotion.

Two wonderful people

Placed upon this earth

To love others and most importantly

Love each other.

My two friends who have fulfilled my life with happiness, peace and harmony.

Take each other into your arms and hold on for the ride,

Never forgetting why you fell in love

Never forgetting why you only exist with the other.

Look upon the stars tonight,

Embrace and never let each other go.

I celebrate this special day with you.

Tears of joy, laughter, and happiness

For two wonderful people

Who have touched my life

With love and happiness.

The two shall now become one,

Take each other into your arms and hold on for the ride,

Never forgetting why you fell in love

Never forgetting why you will only exist with the other.

The Wedding Song for Alison and Victor

This song is written by Ali and Victor and pre-recorded before the wedding. The song is played while Ali is walking down the isle...

We walk together hand in hand,

To a new life, a new beginning.

You searched for me near and far,

Never giving up because of the love you felt

The first day we laid our eyes upon each other

There was a warmth of love that spread throughout our heart and souls

That warmth kept us searching for each other.

The first time I kissed you

I knew you were the one

Life for us took a detour

And for a while we thought we may never reach each other’s destiny

But we fought, we traveled and we searched.

In the end we found each other

And now we begin our new life

A life with love, affection, and joy.

We laugh, we smile, we embrace, hold hands.

Our loved ones are here with us today,

And will be our foundation throughout our lives

So we run, we skip, we laugh, we cry, we kiss

Knowing and realizing we are the luckiest people alive

To have had the gift of life, love, and eternity.

I love you my darling

My heart aches realizing I almost lost you

But most important it rejoices

Rejoices with love and happiness

I smile, I sing, I dance, I laugh, I scream

To the stars, the sun and the moon

I have found you, you are my love

So as the sun is going down and the stars are arriving

We stare upon each other’s eyes

And thank the world for giving us another chance

A chance to find each other

A chance to find the love of my life.

And now we look forward to spending each day,

Each moment, every second that is left for us in this world

In each other’s arms

I love you…………………….

Don't Worry About Us

This song was actually written for my mom who passed away on May 6, 2011...I thought I would include it for Victor. When Victor's mom dies of breast cancer he sings this song for his mother at the funeral...

Mother,

You are with us.

Mother,
We love you so much.

You were there,
Through the good and bad times.
You wiped our tears,
And you smiled and laughed with us.

Momma,
You are near to us.

Momma,
We'll never forget you.

Your smile, your grace,
And your tender heartedness.
Your kiss, your embrace,
Your touch gave us the strength.

Mother...Momma...Mom...Mommy.
Mother...Momma...Mom...Mommy.

Mommy,
Don't worry about us.


Mommy,
We'll take care of daddy.

No more worries.
No more pain in this world.
You are free,
You're our angel in heaven.

Mom,
We shall remember you.

Mom,
And teach our kids too.

We'll always remember,
The smile upon your face.
Holding your grandchild,
The first time in your embrace.

Mother...Momma...Mom...Mommy.
Mother...Momma...Mom...Mommy.

Mother,
Don't worry about us.

Momma,
Don't worry about us.

Mommy,
Don't worry about us.

Mom,
Don't worry about us.

Let Me Go

Ali writes this song during the sequel - Release Me...She is laying in the hospital once again fighting for her life and she is tired of fighting...Actually this was a song I wrote for Xhex in John's Book...those that have read J.R.Ward's Black Dagger Series will know what I am talking about. But it fits perfectly for Release Me:]

Let me go away,

I'm so tired,

Of fighting.

Let me fly away,

I don't want to be here,

I don't want to live.

My heart is dying...My heart is dying...My heart is dying...My heart is dying...

Just let me go away,

Release me from your hold.

I have nothing to give you.

My heart aches in pain,

I don't want to live anymore.

But you keep holding on,

You refuse to let me go.

My heart is breaking...My heart is breaking...My heart is breaking...My heart is breaking...

Your strength,

Is my survival,

Your love,

Keeps my heart beating.

You refuse to let me go,

I am trying to climb out,

Out of this hell hole,

I am trying to survive.

My heart is fighting...My heart is fighting...My heart is fighting...My heart is fighting...

It's your heart,

Keeps me alive.

It's your strength,

That is my survival.

My heart is is beating....My heart is beating...My heart is beating...My heart is beating...

I hope you enjoy just a few of Alison's songs...In a few weeks I will have some of the songs played live on this blog. Come back to visit...

E. Summers